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herself with a slight shake (dreamy? Incredulous?) of her head every time she spoke of those prepubescent years, had a gray home life marked by ill health, and boredom. Only some very expensive,super-oriental doctor with long gentle fingers could have analyzed her nightly dreams of erotic torture in so called “l(fā)abs”, major and minor laboratories with red curtains. She did not remember her father and rather disliked her mother. She was often alone in

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那些青春期前的歲月——那段帶著疾病與厭倦烙印的家庭生活——時(shí)，她總是（夢(mèng)幻般？懷疑地？）輕輕搖著頭。或許只有某些收費(fèi)昂貴、手指溫潤(rùn)修長(zhǎng)、極具東方氣質(zhì)的醫(yī)生，才能在所謂的“實(shí)驗(yàn)室”——掛著紅色窗簾的重點(diǎn)或非重點(diǎn)實(shí)驗(yàn)室——里，分析她夜間做的那些性虐待的夢(mèng)。她記不得自己的父親了，更是討厭她的母親。她常常獨(dú)自