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第22章 CHAPTER V(5)

Better than any one else perhaps - for I remember how you liked her before you went away, and how she liked you - you can intelligently congratulate me.""She has been so free!" Those words made a great impression on Paul Overt, and he almost writhed under that irony in them as to which it so little mattered whether it was designed or casual. Of course she had been free, and appreciably perhaps by his own act;for wasn't the Master's allusion to her having liked him a part of the irony too? "I thought that by your theory you disapproved of a writer's marrying.""Surely - surely. But you don't call me a writer?""You ought to be ashamed," said Paul.

"Ashamed of marrying again?"

"I won't say that - but ashamed of your reasons."The elder man beautifully smiled. "You must let me judge of them, my good friend.""Yes; why not? For you judged wonderfully of mine."The tone of these words appeared suddenly, for St. George, to suggest the unsuspected. He stared as if divining a bitterness.

"Don't you think I've been straight?"

"You might have told me at the time perhaps.""My dear fellow, when I say I couldn't pierce futurity -!""I mean afterwards."

The Master wondered. "After my wife's death?""When this idea came to you."

"Ah never, never! I wanted to save you, rare and precious as you are."Poor Overt looked hard at him. "Are you marrying Miss Fancourt to save me?""Not absolutely, but it adds to the pleasure. I shall be the making of you," St. George smiled. "I was greatly struck, after our talk, with the brave devoted way you quitted the country, and still more perhaps with your force of character in remaining abroad. You're very strong - you're wonderfully strong."Paul tried to sound his shining eyes; the strange thing was that he seemed sincere - not a mocking fiend. He turned away, and as he did so heard the Master say something about his giving them all the proof, being the joy of his old age. He faced him again, taking another look. "Do you mean to say you've stopped writing?""My dear fellow, of course I have. It's too late. Didn't I tell you?""I can't believe it!"

"Of course you can't - with your own talent! No, no; for the rest of my life I shall only read YOU.""Does she know that - Miss Fancourt?"

"She will - she will." Did he mean this, our young man wondered, as a covert intimation that the assistance he should derive from that young lady's fortune, moderate as it was, would make the difference of putting it in his power to cease to work ungratefully an exhausted vein? Somehow, standing there in the ripeness of his successful manhood, he didn't suggest that any of his veins were exhausted. "Don't you remember the moral I offered myself to you that night as pointing?" St. George continued. "Consider at any rate the warning I am at present."This was too much - he WAS the mocking fiend. Paul turned from him with a mere nod for goodnight and the sense in a sore heart that he might come back to him and his easy grace, his fine way of arranging things, some time in the far future, but couldn't fraternise with him now. It was necessary to his soreness to believe for the hour in the intensity of his grievance - all the more cruel for its not being a legal one. It was doubtless in the attitude of hugging this wrong that he descended the stairs without taking leave of Miss Fancourt, who hadn't been in view at the moment he quitted the room. He was glad to get out into the honest dusky unsophisticating night, to move fast, to take his way home on foot. He walked a long time, going astray, paying no attention.

He was thinking of too many other things. His steps recovered their direction, however, and at the end of an hour he found himself before his door in the small inexpensive empty street. He lingered, questioning himself still before going in, with nothing around and above him but moonless blackness, a bad lamp or two and a few far-away dim stars. To these last faint features he raised his eyes; he had been saying to himself that he should have been "sold" indeed, diabolically sold, if now, on his new foundation, at the end of a year, St. George were to put forth something of his prime quality - something of the type of "Shadowmere" and finer than his finest. Greatly as he admired his talent Paul literally hoped such an incident wouldn't occur; it seemed to him just then that he shouldn't be able to bear it. His late adviser's words were still in his ears - "You're very strong, wonderfully strong."Was he really? Certainly he would have to be, and it might a little serve for revenge. IS he? the reader may ask in turn, if his interest has followed the perplexed young man so far. The best answer to that perhaps is that he's doing his best, but that it's too soon to say. When the new book came out in the autumn Mr. and Mrs. St. George found it really magnificent. The former still has published nothing but Paul doesn't even yet feel safe. I may say for him, however, that if this event were to occur he would really be the very first to appreciate it: which is perhaps a proof that the Master was essentially right and that Nature had dedicated him to intellectual, not to personal passion.

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