最后我買了2個糖果，我分享給了小明一個藍色的。我不高興，還有小明不知道為什么不進去。

晚上我不管地，到他的房間，他的床上，抱著他不夠軟的腰睡覺。

我想說出來，就像從小我不能寫作文我的爸爸媽媽，我得寫一年級還是二年級冬天，我不愿意穿一個好舊的外衣，一直打到我流淚帶著我在附近走一圈。我好羨慕別的小孩，這不是個正面、能夠聽能夠說的，然后讓我覺得我也許不是語文學不好。在兒童甚至初中我總是難過家，那是個很大的問題對我來說，哪個是更大要面對的問題是后來的。

我輕輕的用身體撫動小明，他回應稍微抱抱了我。

which affair is be muffled，do you remember that reason.

a boy， caught to know love， but everything of environment is hostile to it， and he not allowed himself so much， and he block the forbbiden love， tell only his father to know that.

His father is the same person in his childhood .His father dislike more with him.

the boy be thrown away his lovely home， and the life's destiny is treat malicious as a waste human in future. nearly half years no talking， and a half year almost abandon alive by self.

小明還是沒有反應一樣的，只是觸覺回應了我。

我抓住他的手，很用力的用牙齒咬他的手腕的手背的皮膚，又不撕裂地。我憤怒但是不可以說、我情感來不及要先活下來，你知道未成年難過時候的心臟感覺嗎？

憑什么你們就能這樣欺負我，do you have had be push wake up and syringe off blood . how about you live in there everyday， continuously obnoxious human sound and noxious air， everybody here mean as a unwanted job either do not talk.

you figure fact is I owed each thing I ate and used， and I should be put out. Is that satisfied your family， you have a very good decent family， without me .

you thing you are decide a choice for a God sake，you are both noble and effortless.

and that is not okay for you not been seen that mammal be tore well enough with both your eyes

your choices are so“good“ that support me no where and even harmful l， you

I love you and I need a relative to be suppose my parent， I pretend someone who so love me， horizontally you occupy that . both exploit each other facility， I don't know how to say that use people . and I too love you.

小明還是不動，但是我咬住他的時候，他身體與我的相同感覺，我感覺到他為我難過的，這種我奢侈的情感，雖然他做不到，就只是陪著我的情感。

我緊緊地抱住他，又同時咬他，我想形容這情感叫做不愛，而不是同時愛和暴怒。

很長時間我才消沉，在幸福的可能里面找未來發生的事，這次不用像兒童的時候以我死亡的代價讓家庭幸福，我就只是各種各樣地夢我是個其他人，我回憶未來發生過的事情、過程、我也好好地談感情，我不再不敢愛情被其他無關的人游戲，我發生了好多回憶。

再就是我松開他了，他卻還圈住我，我想再看看他的臉的表情，光太暗了，看不著。